Thursday, May 17, 2012
I'd stay in shape running for my life.
I decided to start running on the treadmill that Wendy bought. I tried it out the first day, it took almost an hour to walk a mile. I didn't mess with it for a week, last night thanks to the dropping of the Diablo 3 servers, I decided to kill some time by running on the treadmill. I think the treadmill is trying to get me to work out way over my current ability. I hit the "Set Goal" button and picked distance. I was planning running a mile until I could that that mile down to a 5 minute mile. Or around there if it is possible. But when I hit the "Set Goal" button the treadmill was like "Ok, you are going to do 3 miles in 30 minutes at 6 miles per hour GO!" I was like whoa whoa! hold on, what the fuck am I a 3 year old with unlimited energy? I had to dial it back to just 1 mile, I couldn't set it to 1.5 miles so I could have a cool down walk after the mile was over. I am sure that if I tried to set the thing to .5 miles the machine would just laugh at me. Cocky machine don't make me go all Sarah Conner on you. I kept the 6 mile an hour pace, I figured I could keep that up for a little bit. I managed to get to .3 miles before I had to slow down. I don't think I'm in as bad as shape as I was before I started working at Trion, since I have been playing dodge ball on break for the past few months. I am running in bear feet, which Wendy says is weird. Maybe I should wear shoes but I feel more comfortable on bear feet than anything at the moment. Maybe I'll change my mind once I trip and rip my toe off. Until then I'll just keep up with what I am comfortable with. So now I am going to try and keep myself motivated by the simple little thing that Day 9 from Day9tv said on a recent cast of his show. "I'm not here because I'm better or more knowledgeable than any of you out there, I got here because I just showed up." So from now on I'm just going to show up on that treadmill every day.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
I might know when to shut up.
Right before heading to work this morning, since I usually show up an hour early. I was reading a post on a friend's facebook. She's not what I would call a close friend, just one of those people you met in high school and she sent me a friend request and has yet to really interact with me. Nothing I post ever gets comments or likes from her, I don't really care I'm just trying to establish how our interactions on facebook go, if you could call one side completely ignoring the other an interaction. Anyway I will put my snide and witty comments under her status updates on occasion. Nothing too inflammatory or not from my my perspective. She hasn't unfriended me yet and no one has posted angry comments in response to my "jokes." This morning amused me.
She has posted a long update of how life was like a roller coaster bla bla bla... at the end of the statement it was just "I'm happy with where mine is going." I was hoping for something more profound maybe something more cheery. I mean yeah I'm glad your happy, but that just that same kind of self service shit people post on their facebook all the time about look how good I have it. And since I'm a pretty slow reader thanks to dyslexia when I read someone's long status post if it doesn't make me laugh or offer some bit of knowledge or cheer me up at the end I'm going to feel cheated and I'm going to say something. I know what am I thinking something profound on facebook. I'm in no way trying to belittle the girls intellect she's a smart girl. I've not seen a post like this from her before which is why is stuck out so much.
I proceeded to say that I was expecting something more profound at the end of it, so I added my own sentence at the end. That although grim it made me feel better. "The sudden stop at the end will cause whiplash, but you'll be able to look back at the amazing ride it's been." Yes I do mention that you're going to die at the end of your ride. That is something that has become readily apparent too me now since the deaths in my family have come so close together so quickly and not all to older people you would naturally expect to die. So maybe I'm a little more world worn when it comes to death than a few people around me.
In pops in a friend of hers that I don't know, she quotes something from a blog she once read not stating who's blog it was so, basically she's not giving credit to the author which is something people do on the internet. The comment is again an analogy to the roller coaster and life, it isn't very good. I state that I still like what I said better. Then it kind of dawns on me. I post again, stating that life would suck to be like a roller coaster. The idea that everything you do is already on a preset path is awful. Nothing you do is going to matter and it's not going to change. I would much rather make the analogy that life was like life on the open seas. The same concept of being on the roller coaster ups, downs, calm seas, rough seas. Yet you could go anywhere you wanted. And if you didn't keep your ship together when the storms hit, it can be brutal.
I thought that was pretty good. So then I left for work feeling pretty good about myself. Then as I thought about it, I realized that what I did could be considered rude. Which is how it dawns on me that what I did could be considered rude. I takes me at least an hour of pondering to go "Oh hey, you're kind of an asshole." I said to myself as I was getting out of my car "I wonder if anyone thinks I'm an asshole." I laughed and restated since I know there are plenty of people that know I'm an asshole. "I wonder if anyone who reads those posts, thinks I'm an asshole."
It wouldn't really bother me, it just struck me as amusing this morning that once again after years of this kind of behavior, I think what I am saying is amusing, but really it is just me being a jerk to some one. I do that more often than I realize and when I do realize it, I can't but just continue to laugh. Maybe its out of embarrassment maybe it's just because I don't care. "I'm not in this for the revolution sweetheart and I'm not in it for you princess I expect to be well paid."
Ian Serna
She has posted a long update of how life was like a roller coaster bla bla bla... at the end of the statement it was just "I'm happy with where mine is going." I was hoping for something more profound maybe something more cheery. I mean yeah I'm glad your happy, but that just that same kind of self service shit people post on their facebook all the time about look how good I have it. And since I'm a pretty slow reader thanks to dyslexia when I read someone's long status post if it doesn't make me laugh or offer some bit of knowledge or cheer me up at the end I'm going to feel cheated and I'm going to say something. I know what am I thinking something profound on facebook. I'm in no way trying to belittle the girls intellect she's a smart girl. I've not seen a post like this from her before which is why is stuck out so much.
I proceeded to say that I was expecting something more profound at the end of it, so I added my own sentence at the end. That although grim it made me feel better. "The sudden stop at the end will cause whiplash, but you'll be able to look back at the amazing ride it's been." Yes I do mention that you're going to die at the end of your ride. That is something that has become readily apparent too me now since the deaths in my family have come so close together so quickly and not all to older people you would naturally expect to die. So maybe I'm a little more world worn when it comes to death than a few people around me.
In pops in a friend of hers that I don't know, she quotes something from a blog she once read not stating who's blog it was so, basically she's not giving credit to the author which is something people do on the internet. The comment is again an analogy to the roller coaster and life, it isn't very good. I state that I still like what I said better. Then it kind of dawns on me. I post again, stating that life would suck to be like a roller coaster. The idea that everything you do is already on a preset path is awful. Nothing you do is going to matter and it's not going to change. I would much rather make the analogy that life was like life on the open seas. The same concept of being on the roller coaster ups, downs, calm seas, rough seas. Yet you could go anywhere you wanted. And if you didn't keep your ship together when the storms hit, it can be brutal.
I thought that was pretty good. So then I left for work feeling pretty good about myself. Then as I thought about it, I realized that what I did could be considered rude. Which is how it dawns on me that what I did could be considered rude. I takes me at least an hour of pondering to go "Oh hey, you're kind of an asshole." I said to myself as I was getting out of my car "I wonder if anyone thinks I'm an asshole." I laughed and restated since I know there are plenty of people that know I'm an asshole. "I wonder if anyone who reads those posts, thinks I'm an asshole."
It wouldn't really bother me, it just struck me as amusing this morning that once again after years of this kind of behavior, I think what I am saying is amusing, but really it is just me being a jerk to some one. I do that more often than I realize and when I do realize it, I can't but just continue to laugh. Maybe its out of embarrassment maybe it's just because I don't care. "I'm not in this for the revolution sweetheart and I'm not in it for you princess I expect to be well paid."
Ian Serna
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